When was the last time you woke up from a dream, your heart was pounding, you felt beads of sweat and the fear was so intense you knew it was real? You were scared or even terrified. Your dream was crystal clear and vivid. There was no doubt in your mind, you were there and it was happening. Ahh, no it was "just a dream". For the past couple of years, I've had a recurring dream which brought me all of these thoughts and feelings.
I dreamed I was standing on the walkway of the Hoover Dam looking down with no barrier to keep me from falling over the edge. If I moved an inch, I would fall and tumble thousands of feet below with no one and nothing to stop me. So, I would freeze in almost a panic knowing if I moved, life would be over. I would wake up, terrified.
I didn't connect the dots until this week. This dream coincided with my inability to move from wishing and hoping for the life I wanted to actually taking dramatic steps to have it. In fact, I only just discovered this connection the other night when I had a similar dream with a much different outcome.
I dreamed I was playing with a friend in the forest. We were chasing each other and laughing. All of a sudden, I turned and to my surprise I was standing on the edge of the Hoover Dam. I froze - completely still. To my shock, my friend didn't stop and he bumped me off the edge and I fell down, down, down into the huge expanse of this pit. I immediately began to pray asking God to protect me. I was no longer fearful, at all. I knew I would be safe and all would be just as it was suppose to be - whatever that was. The further I fell, I changed from tumbling to opening up my arms and felt the wind all over my body. The concrete transformed to a beautiful thick forest of trees, bushes and birds. I was smiling and joyful because there was no fear. I Can Fly!!! It was freedom. It was liberating. I was thrilled.
I believe I'm no longer standing on the edge, terrified of the What If. Instead, I've jumped into the life I want and the same question has totally different emotion now. There's curiosity, excitement, boldness, creativity and energy. What If? What's Now? What's Next?
